Thinking

Am I making the right decision? Somehow the fast approaching exam for medical admission gives me doubt if I'm making a right decision entering a new field. Though medicine is related to chemistry, they are still a completely different field. The thought of being separated from chemistry really sadden me.

I have had lived a life that revolves around my current field for almost 7 years already. Chemistry has been with me through good and bad times. It even has seen me battle against my challenges in life and has been with me in my every moment of change.

Though I had consistently announced to people how much I dislike chemistry and how much I'll be better off without it, this realization that I'll be soon leaving give me a very torn apart feeling. How I wish I didn't drive it away, knowing now how much I am in love already with it.

There's no turning back from medicine. I can't take back my promise to a lot of people already and especially from my father. Somehow what makes me happy in my decision is the possibility of being able to serve God through this field. Through medicine I know I'll be able to help a lot of God's people and be a servant to His people.

This doesn't mean an end between I and chemistry. I will not say goodbye at all. I believe that in the future, I'll be able to find ways on how to make the two fields work to my advantage and be an instrument to be of service to God through His people.